Hell's Bells to Heaven's Yells: A Soulful Switcheroo

Rom 7:1 Or are you ignorant, brothers (for I speak to those who know the law), that the law lords it over the man as long as he lives? (2) For the married woman is bound by the law to her husband while he is living; but if the husband dies, she is discharged from the law regarding the husband.

Today, I've been thinking about how much my spiritual life has changed. It's weird to remember my old life as a Satanist priest and see how different things are now.

Back then, I had very different ideas about life and faith:

I didn't believe in following a God. Instead, I thought people should rely on themselves.
I told others they didn't need God's help. I said we could make our own rules and be our own gods.
We didn't care about traditional religious ideas. We thought being independent from God was good, not bad.
Now, when I look back, I'm amazed at how much I've changed. It wasn't easy to change my mind about these big ideas. I had to face a lot of doubts and ask myself hard questions.

These days, I'm starting to like the idea of having a close relationship with God. I used to laugh at this idea, but now it makes me feel good. I'm trying to find a balance between doing things on my own and trusting in God.

I've learned that it's okay to admit we can't do everything alone. Now I see that there might be a reason for God's rules, even if I don't always understand them.

Sometimes I wonder:

How do I make sense of what I used to believe and what I believe now?
Can I use what I learned in the past to help other people who are changing their spiritual ideas?
I don't have all the answers, but I'm glad I can think about these things. My time as a Satanist priest taught me a lot, even if I don't believe those things anymore. It helps me understand different ways of thinking about faith.

This whole experience has taught me to keep an open mind. I've learned that sometimes we have to question what we believe to grow. As I move forward, I'm using what I learned in the past to build a better connection with God now.

Until next time

Chaplain Mark