The Art of Not Knowing It All

Today, I'm thinking about dependency and life. It's strange how we celebrate independence in so many areas of our lives, yet true life demands something entirely different—a profound, continuous dependence.

I think about my own journey—all those years of education, learning to be self-sufficient, mastering skills. Each graduation felt like a triumph of independence. But what if real growth isn't about becoming independent, but about understanding my fundamental need for connection?

The biblical passages I've been studying today hit me differently. That line about life being "an illuminating force" resonates within me. It's not just about existing, but about being fully alive—radiant, connected, purposeful.

I'm struck by the metaphor of breathing. I can't "graduate" from breathing. No matter how skilled I become, how much I learn, I will always need air. It's a humbling thought. My spiritual life is no different. I'm not meant to become an expert who no longer needs sustenance, but a perpetual receiver, always drawing from a source beyond myself.

What does it mean to truly depend? Not weakness, but a conscious, intentional receptivity. Not resignation, but an active choice to remain connected to something greater than my own capabilities.

Today, I choose dependence. Today, I breathe.