When God Turned Me Into a Mr. Potato Head: A Journey of Self-Discovery

Dear Journal,

Today I was thinking deeply about my place in our church community. You know how sometimes I get caught up comparing myself to others, especially Sarah who seems to be amazing at organizing all those youth events? Well, I had this profound realization during Bible study when we were reading Romans 12.

It hit me - it's actually beautiful that we're all different. Just like I wouldn't expect my eyes and nose to do the same job (ha!), why do I keep thinking I should be able to do everything others can do? I mean, when I'm leading a counseling session, I feel so in my element. That's my thing. But put me in charge of organizing a bake sale like Jessica does, and I'd be completely lost!

It's funny, I was watching everyone during service today and noticed how Courney has this amazing way of making newcomers feel welcome (something I'm honestly terrible at), while quiet Mable somehow always knows exactly when someone needs prayer. Even the Thompson sisters, who are practically twins, have such different gifts - Emily's incredible with the toddlers while Katie shines in the tech booth.

I guess what I'm learning is that it's okay - actually, it's perfect - that I can't do what others do. That's exactly how it's supposed to be. Instead of feeling bad about what I can't do, I should celebrate what each person brings to our community.

Note to self: Remember to tell Gabby how much her administrative skills mean to the church. I used to feel intimidated by how organized she is, but now I see how her abilities complement mine rather than diminish them.

Reading this passage today really changed my perspective. I feel lighter somehow, like I can finally stop trying to be everything to everyone and just focus on being the best version of my unique self.

Will write more tomorrow, Chaplain Mark